Thoughts

Just thought I come through because I just had this on my mind and wanted to blog it. It may be confusing it may not be. I'm just writing as the words come to my mind. Its no specific order or whatever.

I have to learn to keep my Faith when trying times come around. I have to learn to trust You more and more. I have to learn to not question the things you do. I have to learn to cast my cares upon you and leave them there. I have to learn that everything you do has a purpose that I may not understand, but know that it is your plan for me. No matter what happens in my life I have to remember that your word is truth. That you will never leave me nor forsake me. Work on me Jesus. I want to give you my all and surrender myself to you. I know that the road won't be easy, you never said that it would be. But I know that I won't be on that road alone that you are always there. I want you apart of my everyday life. I desire to have you apart of my everyday life and everything I do. Let not my will, but your will be done. I don't want to stray away anymore. Lord guide me down the right path and help me to stay on that path once I'm there. I desire to be more like you Jesus. I cry often because I know I've been a disappointment to you and I want to do better. Forgive me of my sins. I love you beyond what words can express. I'm tired of being partially right I want to be all the way...God give me the strength, give my family and friends the strength they need to get through any situation they are going through. You are our comforter, our way maker, our provider. our everything.

I fall to my knees with tears in my eyes and I pray to You endlessly...you know my every thought. You know that all I ever wanna do is be there when I'm needed and as much as I can. You know my heart aches when I'm not able to do so. I don't understand why, but I have to trust that You have it all under control no matter how hard it maybe for me. Its just frustrating when I can't do anything, but sit back and let it be known that I'm always here and try to give words of encouragement. I feel like it isn't enough. *tears* why do I cry when you say it would be alright.

I have to trust Him, believe Him, and never doubt Him.